@miRuLez the SwEetNeSs of LiFe

Just came back from TM Net Appreciation Dinner "Nite of the shining stars". It was a splendid dinner with lots of nice food (yumm yumm) err but stucked sitting on the same table with all datoks datoks and datins datins.. aiyaa.. hard to eat.. why lerr they put me there.. I prefer to sit at the back so I can eat what ever I want with any type of style… sheesh.. but then.. at least get to know with some of them. perhaps future prospects for my business. Gladly the dinner really gives me a morale boost after a hectic day today.. (the stories continues)

Today, my GM, Manager and me went for a meeting with a company (it was a higher learning institution) for a million ringgit project. And I am very pleased to hear that our company’s proposal and quotation managed to grab their attention and it has been approved by the board members.. BUT… this is one thing that I hate dealing with some culprits that claimed that they have the power to bring any company to close deal with theirs. Expecting some up-front from us (to me more like rasuah) which about a few thousand ringgit just for the sake helping us to get the project. At first we just don’t want to think about it.. but when he starts to make things difficult for us.. just because we decide not to deliver the up-front as per requested.. that culprit hold our award letter and decided to call upon other tender.. I’m totally pissed off.. not just me.. both of my manager and GM was totally pissed as well… I guess we will have to wait until monday since my GM having a "golf session" with the board member. My opinion.. this time we’ll make sure that culprit don’t even get a cent from the project.. or maybe worst.. he’ll be dismissed from the company.. You are messing around with the wrong people… Well at least I can rest assured that the case was in the appropriate hand now.. Can’t wait to hear the news on monday.. ^_^

@miRuLez

you’re Crazy Cool

         
       

You
taking the tried and true path? We doubt it. A wild child with lots of
passion, you often prefer to leap without looking. This means you don’t
mind taking a chance or getting in a little trouble from time to time.
If you learned something new or pushed yourself, then hey, it was worth
it.

Sure, you’ve got a sensible side, too, but you’d rather get lost in the
moment and do something no one else has done before. Sound pretty cool?
It certainly is.

"bla bla bla.. I wonder if it is true.. blergh ^_^"

@miRuLez

I dunno what happened to me these few days, they told me, I’m moody, dreamy, not cheerful as before and easily distracted. I don’t know.. I feel emptiness deep inside me. I need someone to be on my side I guess, to care and to pat my shoulder. I always dump my face in my pillow, imagining if that was somebody’s shoulder, crying. Sometimes I do not know why I’m crying. The tears was simply flowing from my eyes.. just like that. Yeah I admit I become more emotional these days. Naah, if you guys thinks that my heart has broken. Nope, my heart does not belongs to anyone yet. It’s still with me all alone.

Maybe because I was thinking too hard about my dad. Yeah he just turned 50 yesterday. But yet struggling with his life and my mom’s. As the only aire in the family, I’m still incapable to support them, to feed them. I’m only able to support myself financially and pay some of the house’s bills. But yet still not enough to make them stop working and let them enjoying the remaining of their life. Yeah I feel totally bad about it. I always dreaming about .. every month, I would bring back some money for them to enjoy. Saying, "ayah, ibu, this is something for you to spent for this month". Every end of the year I would say, "ayah, ibu, let’s go for vacation".I still can’t do it… sadly.

Maybe because I was thinking about I was living alone until these days. Fixing my own problems alone, striving alone, and carving my future alone. I always dreamt about, one day there’s an angel came into my life, lending their shoulder to rest my head on, their hand caressing my head to calm me down and their voice to cherish my soul. I wonder when would it happened.. Naah just another silly dreams…

Maybe because, I took most things too seriously.. until it is out of hand. Well I’m not a happy go lucky guy.. I don’t know how to enjoy my life. Some may find lepak and watching movies as some ways to release their tense. But sadly.. I not know those, never had a chance to do that. My life until today not more than commitments, responsibilities, careers, workloads and all heavy stuff. I wonder.. is it possible for me to be like my friends who has time to really enjoy their youthood, by going clubbing, watching movies, camping, playing at the beach, climbing mountains and all happy stuff. My bored life really turns my friends away from me. They are afraid that their ideas to invite me to join them might turned out to be something that wasted my time, as they respect my time as an entreprenuers. I do not what to say now.. I tried my best to hv time for myself as I traveled once in every month. I went to Penang, Johore, Perak, Melaka, Kedah, as I hope that through the journey I can find something interesting along the way.. but yet.. travelling alone was not more than just driving from one place to another. No goals, no objective. Just driving….

In the end here I am again, typing this blog after a hectic day… with a boring blog blabbering about my life. Naah.. it’s not that I hate my life.. but just feel pity to myself for not living my life to the fullest.

@miRuLez

Well everyone.. time to make an announcement!! (Drum rolls) XD I’m no longer posting personal things ere… ^_^ Sorry, gomenasai.. huhu I’ll be posting something important only starting this point or maybe a few stupid things as well.. But no more personal story relates to my hearts and soul. Bleh some might find it rather bored or maybe some find it a good source of gossip.. (siapa makan cili terasa laa pedas ek? ahaha) Well the reasons is.. since I posted these kind of posting,
1. Asyik kene perli all the time.. tak tahan dowh..
2. Satu office and partner lain always brings the issues when we had free time.. warghh..
3. Well as well to respect others feelings too..
4. ^_^ (peace)

Okies.. time to continue doing my work.. so many thing to be done.. woke up at 4.00am today to continue the work (mcm buat assignment jerr time U dulu) hehe. Alrighty then..

@miRuLez

To all.. keep this in mind if you want to live a happy life without causing troubles to others and to avoid from being cursed that will make your life miserable in the end..

RULE 1:
If you have problems that may caused troubles to others.. for GOD sake.. tell them

RULE 2:
Please be TRUTHFUL if you’re not capable to be HONEST… but don’t give excuses that does NOT   relates at all

RULE 3:
Be friends IN NEED not when you NEED someone.

RULE 4:
Tell the truth when someone cares about you and asked you if you have one.

There are many rules laying out there…. get to know it and STOP making others life miserable. If you think you can simply walk away after causing troubles……. trust me, you’ll face it again in the near future…. Truly I’m dissapointed, feels offended, and displeased with them…  I guess I only have 1 phrase to say to them… "THANK YOU FOR CAUSING TROUBLES IN MY LIFE.. MAY YOU WILL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER WITH WHAT YOU HAVE DONE" thank you….

"Kawan, kawan laa beb, kerja… be professional laa sikit.. jgn ikut sedap kepala sendiri"

@miRuLez